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Friday, December 22, 2006
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Oh, I totally forgot....
SO I am officially Hypoglycemic...I mean we always suspected, but as of this morning it is confirmed by a medical professional. So Kimie can stop griping about it now.
I never thought buying a blood glucose meter thingy would be such a pain...but it is...this one or that one? how much are the strips for that one? Is it cheaper in the long run? What's going on? Why is my voice so high?...right...
Oh and with all the depressing break up talk I forgot the fact that I move into my apartment in about 11 days!!
January 2nd I move into my new, beautiful Greenville apartment. I will post pics when I am settled in and all cozy. My room will be grand..I can tell you that much.
Ok now it really is off to bed with me!
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So here's a doozy. I have myself experienced said doozy in the recent past.
Aside from the fact that breaking up sucks...let's face it..it sucks.
There's that paranoia time period from both sides, this jealousy, but you both know it's not righteous jealousy...although when is jealousy righteous? Anyways, there's that whole crap where you are terrified the other has moved on before you have...that nagging feeling, those accusations that the other is dating someone else...the funny thing is when you are accused of such things, but there are no feelings for anyone (because you simply can't stomach having another relationship at the moment, and you're still pining for the last one, so you cut off such feelings...or something like that) but anyways there are definitely no feelings for those you are accused of, in fact they are a great friend, or just an acquaintance, a classmate, etc. and you can't do anything except laugh to yourself...because you know exactly...how...they...feel.
That's one of the worst parts of this breaking up stuff...now no one said that was the worst...certainly not.
There's the whole...I want them to be happy...but I want them to be happy with ME...well that's selfish, all this was your fault, self. I know, I know.
AND not to mention the overwhelming man pool out there. And the smarmy ones. yuck....who needs 'em. I don't trust Greenville guys, that's for sure. One word..smarmy and just all around ick. You can just tell.
So, past a musing that's been brewing for some weeks now...
How about when one of your best friends moves to Indonesia?...that's always fun...makes you feel alone again...great.
How about when you try to make amends with someone and try to hang out start over fresh and they won't speak to you...great.
How about Christmas only 3 days away and the Christmas spirit?...well it's away as well. great.
How about J.K. Rowling naming her 7th book?...that actaully is GREAT! best news all day....probably the only good news all day.
How about all the sleep you're not getting because you're writing this blog...yea.
Night.
Oh, and Happy Birthday blog....one year of ranting. =)
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- Whoever said life was fair? -
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Friday, December 01, 2006
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Pain, according to Wikipedia : "Pain is an unpleasant sensation, ranging in intensity from slight through severe to indescribable. Sharp, throbbing, dull, nauseating, burning and shooting are among the qualities that pain can be experieced to have."
So ok, humans are engineered to feel pain. It's in us, we cant escape it. There are ways to delay the pain, there's always morphine...to completely numb the pain and make you temporarily unaware of it, but, it's always in the back of your mind, and it's always back again once the morphine's gone. There's your standard Tylenol, to dull the pain...it's still there but it's not so in your face. There's all types of way to try and forget pain, to put it on hold. Morphine and Tylenol can be like the people in your life, but in the end, it's always there and the only remedy - is time.
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